Wednesday, August 10, 2005

...poemish mood...

I wrote this in 10 mins. Maybe I should consider poems rather than novels. Hmmms......

Yesterday it seems...like i'm infatuatin'
But then i was assured...i'm not alone, it's how you're feelin'
And today once again...i feel all empty inside
As though something's missing...just darkness, no light...

Gripped by fear
This phobia that made me tear
To lose all that i love
Including you, my darlin' dear

I hate this
Being so afraid of nothingness
No doubt we're moving too fast
But if i fail, am i cursed?

You said just let us bloom
And true enough, i quite agree
But what if things turn back on me?
Just you see, i'll go crazy

I ain't blind sweetheart, what more oblivious
So i'll wait and hope, praying Allah fulfill my wishes
But let's say if i die tomorrow, my true feelings you'll never learn
Darlin', i'll say this last few words, i'll wait for ya in Heaven

=]

There. A forced smile from the thoughts of my tears. It's irritating when i get all emotional and put my literature poemic skills to test. Bah. Pardon that little poem. The purpose of it, you ask? Read it, you heinous imbecile. Readdddd. And understand. It's the result of the diseases i'm suffering from. Depressioniosis. Laughtomania Syndrome. Irritatingimia Disease. Gawddd...i'm dying.

Can i make the poem into a song? I think i'll try. Lols. The singing writer. Wanna join me Nizzie Sisssiee?

Sheesh.

*Missing a lil someone. Arggghhhh...* Bummer.

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