Friday, May 26, 2006

What was it that you called when you're going through a phase where you're just so afraid your worst doubts will be assured? Where you're certain you fears are gonna come right out and slap you in the face? Where you're dreading something which you you've been wishing never happened?

There's a word for it. Wad was it? Oh yeaaa....PARANOIA.

It happens sometimes. And when it grips you, it grips you real bad. Funnily enough, i think it's gripping me at the moment, for whatever reasons only God knows. Maybe i am weird. No. Screw that. I AM weird. *grins* But i do know some people who goes through being paranoid daily.

For example, Fahrul. He's so paranoid that one day his Superman boxers would go missing....like they would fly out of his windows or something. He wears it everyday and when he doesn't, he sleeps with it under his pillow. Try suggesting he buys a new one, and see how the moron reacts. If he doesn't scream and curse you into obliviation, then i'm a flobberworm. =)

Back to my point, maybe i shouldn't get paranoid. Maybe it's just some silly instinct prodding me...until sometimes i reduce to tears, without realising it and have to breathe in and out, calming myself down with a pack of biscuits. Sad really.

I just hate having no means of communication...in simpler terms, handphone. It leads to my paranoidism. If ever there is such a word. Sheesh.

I don't want history to repeat. Please, God? I really love him you know.

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