Tuesday, April 03, 2007
Salju Di Danau Rindu
"Nanti aku kol kau. Half an hour gitu k.."That was the only reply I got after I spend twenty whole minutes meticulous typing on my cell phone, sending out four messages, explaining the whole story of my dilemma and filling up most of the space calling he-who-must-not-be-named-aka-andy everything from a jerk to a male chauvinist pig and every variation thereof. And all Farhan could give, as a sympathetic reply was those nine pathetic words.
A friend in need is a friend indeed?
BULLSHIT.I guessed people do have other things to worry about. While i'm only worried that my love Sabrina might faint at cafe if i dun send her Mom's cooking soon, people around me have more important concerns in mind. So while waiting for the frying to finish, i gave Yati a call asking abt the well-being of the family. I learned that Hafiz has managed to spell his full name (Muhammad Hafiz Danial Shah Bin Syed Farhan. The boy's gonna have a hard time shading his name during exams) and Nurul now wakes up at 3 in the morning (I must have passed her the wake-early sydrome) crying for milk, everyday without fail much to the annoyance of Farhan.
So Yati the Super-Mom urged me to msg Farhan and tell him every bit of the story i just told her. Being the nice friend that i was, i did. His short-suspicious reply got me thinking so much that i didn't even realized my fingers were dialling his number on my home phone. Before i could stop myself, i heard his prominent
'hello?' on the other line follow by some sort of hush whispers in the background.
"Han? Kau pat - "He cut me off, like he always did without fail each time i called him.
"Babe," he said heavily. There was some sort of scraping noise at the other end of the receiver.
"Aku seriously busy sia. Sorry Id. Nanti aku kol balek. Promise promise."There was something in his tone, which suggested he's keeping things from me. The Farhan i knew never hid anything from me. Even if he were dealing with some sort of illegal drug trafficking, i'd be the first person he would confide in. (Okay alright. Scratch the drug-thing. I kept thinking everybody is Andy.) But still, to hear for the first time ever that there's something he's not telling, i couldn't help but feel suspicious. Frowning and pouting, i said accusingly,
"If it's a girl, kau boleh just bilang aku tau.""Aku dah kawen bodoh. And Id, i'm not you. Aku tak tukar partner macam tukar baju."Talk about something whacking you straight in the face."Thanks a lot lah Farhan eh. But kau not cheating on Yati, are you?""Tak lah sial. Aku tgh dgn kawan laki nie."I tried to gel in his words, but it's proving difficult. Monday is Farhan's off day; he either spent the day with Yati and the kids, or he's down the block spraying his bike. To think he's out with some guy that he's just refusing to introduce is mind-boggling.
"Babe," i heard him called again after i remained silent for three long minutes.
"Aku dah kawen. Dah jadi bapak orang pon. So im straight, and u noe that. Stop it sak Id."I grinned. Farhan always had a knack for voicing my thoughts and knowing exactly what was on my mind. But before i got a chance to say anything else, the line went dead. Hmmm. Remind me to tell Yati that her husband's gone crazy.
I'm still waiting for Mommy to finish her cooking. It's funny how when you're waiting for something so simple, your thoughts just run wild. And to top it off, this beautiful song decided to play on my computer.
Tak pernah ku kesal
Memilih dirimu
Biarpun pudar kelam masa silam
Bagiku kasih sayang satu anugerah
Tak ternilai olehku
Benarlah katamu hidup penuh pura
Tetapi tidak pada diri ini
Cintaku tulus suci lahir dari hati
Salju di danau rindu
Mengapakah sukar menyakinkan cinta
Yang terbiar layu disirami duka
Sedangkan diriku umpama pengemis
Mengharap kasihmu itu
Izinkanlah aku menyintaimu
Dan sesungguhnya cintaku satu
Benarlah katamu hidup penuh pura
Tetapi tidak pada diri ini
Cintaku tulus suci lahir dari hati
Salju di danau rindu
I felt a tear coming, so i changed the track to Taufik's 'Usah Lepaskan'. NOT HELPING.
I hate this. They came one after another, flowing in and out, in and out, like it's the most natural thing to do on earth. Him who simply wouldn't give up. Him who caused me to wait in vain. Him who gave me the reason to smile even in weariness. Him with his cute hair and air of innocence. Him who got me so mesmerized that i stared at him while crossing the road. Him, the smart-pants and his chocolate milano nonsense. Him who's all sweet, but too busy with three jobs at once. All the hims appearing at the same time, driving me insane.
FAHRUL U'RE THE ONLY HIM I NEED. PLZ COME OUT SOON MATE.
Oh, my phone rang. Farhan's calling. I love you buddy. I tink i'll stop crying now.
12:47 PM
