___u break my heart, i'll break ur head__

Sunday, October 07, 2007

Innalillah Wainnallilahiraji'un...

Unexpected news could make you go so weak in the knees, you just feel like letting your delicate legs give way and crumble to the ground. Unexpected news would seem so hard to believe that even a few days after that, the shock would leave you with such a heavy-hearted grief.

Kid: Maner lah si jantan sundal nie. Kasi dia tgk...GSR i lagi lawa dari GSR dia tau. *irritatingly evil laughter*
Me: Takde pon b...dia off ker nyari.

*spots Baba*

Kid: BABA! Don maner sak? Tak kejer?
Baba: Don dah meninggal. *pause with nonchalant expression*
Kid: Sial ah kau. Tak baek sak. Betol2 lah. Maner Don?
Baba: Kau tak baca surat khabar per? Dier accident kan on Wed pat Bukit Timah dalam kul 3 pagi gitu. Tgh bawak pompan maner ntah. Skid abeh lose control, flung off the bike. Isi perut sumer terkeluar.
Kid: *shocked silent* Serious per.
Baba: Pehal nak maen2 kan. Gi carik suratkhabar Thursday ah. Aku tolong angkat sak mayat dier. Lemah sey aku dapat cam muker dier pat hospital.
Kid: Aku baru dtg sini last Friday jumpe dia sak.
Baba: Allah dah nak amek dia Kid, nak buat aper. Ade hikmah lagipun. Allah nak dia stop buat dosa2 dan maksiat2 yang dia buat selama nie.

http://www.straitstimes.com/Latest+News/Singapore/STIStory_163992.html

I swear my heart dropped.

That's like 2 fatal accidents of friends and acquantainces Kid and I knew, just this 2007 alone. And they never fail to bring me back to the incidents of two years ago. Of every single detail that happen and how it breaks me so bad, i never got over it til over a year ago. And although Don's death would never impact me so much like Zafer's did, it still turned my legs into jelly to hear the news. Kid and I just spoke to him a week back, and today...the guy is no longer here.

Dear Don,

I'm gonna miss stepping into De Xing to hear you screaming "BILE NAK BAYA INSTALLMENT??" to Kid. I'm gonna miss you helping me to psycho Kid into getting a Super4 instead of a GSR. I'm gonna miss your winks and how you're always suggesting Kid to trade me with any other bike in that shop. I'm gonna miss your stupid little bikini calendars. I'm gonna miss your deliberate invitations to ride your bike. I'm gonna miss how you make Kid a punch bag everytime we meet. And i'm definitely going to miss FU 69.

Ya Allah, kau ampunilah segala dosa-dosanya, dan ringankan lah azab api neraka yang bakal dia terima.

It opened our eyes a little wider (though i doubt mine could be any bigger than it already is) everytime, doesn't it? One moment you're joking and laughing around, and the next moment he's gone from this world.

Andai ku tahu
Kapan tiba ajalku
Ku akan memohon
Tuhan jangan kau ambil nyawaku

Aku takut akan semua dosa-dosaku
Aku takut dosa yang terus membayangiku

Andai ku tahu
MalaikatMu kan menjemputku
Izinkan aku mengucap kata taubat padaMu..

Selamat Hari Raya all.

*In Loving Memories, Muhammad Farhal Dominic Rappa a.k.a Don*

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